Last night I cried myself to sleep. If you can call it sleep. I slept maybe a total of 3 hours last night.
This is one of the lowest times of my life - you really can not imagine how bad this hurts. I would not wish this extreme pain on my worst enemy.
I know I posted after m/c#2 how bad I hurt. I can tell you with 100% certainty that those feelings were nothing.
We will be taking a much needed break. Maybe start again with the new year - maybe not start again ever. I know nothing has a guarantee, but, I just can not go through this again. My heart hurts too much.
To want something so badly, only to have it ripped away from you is one of the worst feelings in the world.
Colin knows something is up - I told him I have the flu. You can tell he is worried about me and it breaks my heart.