Friday, October 17, 2008

My first due date

My first due date is Oct 29th. After my first loss, I thought FOR SURE my due date would really not bother me too much because I was sure I would be pregnant again.

Well, I was pregnant again, and again. That does not mean that I am pregnant on my due date.

I would be on matenity leave right now, the nursery woud be set up, Colin would be preparing for a sibling.

The family would be full of anticipation, filled with excitement.

I am sure that Colin would be wondering if the baby would be born of his birthday.

My shower would have happened months ago and I am sure by now I would have organized everything nice.

The spare room (AKA baby's room) would be cleared out and decorated for a baby. I refuse to clear out the room. An empty room is just too hard to look at every day.

My sister announced she was pregnant on the same day I did. She was about 4 weeks behind me. I am sure we would be looking foward to having cousins so close in age.

My belly would be big and round, and I am sure I would be very uncomfortable right now. Trust me, I would take all the uncomfortablness in the world if that meant I got to bring a child into our family.

What will I feel as my other dates come and go.

October 29, March 3, May 28


Jill said...

Sending you (((BIG HUGS))) -- you are in my thoughts.

MT said...

It will get easier as time goes on the first dates of when you would be due are hard. I passed mine in August when our first baby would have been born, it was sad and I was angry but, I had to let it go and look ahead with hope.

Be well and stay strong.

Maria (MKC101103) said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. But I read your post that you decided to adopt (yeah!!!) and that means you'll now have so many more wonderful dates to look forward to. The first being Nov. 3rd!

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