Digital = not pregnant

Note to self - when using a digital hpt, pee in a cup.

So, yesterday I got a total definite positive on a $tree hpt. I have actually been testing since the other day when I had the evap line craziness. Each time, I tested negative. There were some that after a few hours I saw a shadow of a line - evap lines or just crazy Amy lines. Who knows.

But, yesterday - I did the hpt and within 30 seconds there was nothing. So, I jumped in the shower and when I got out of the shower, there is was, clear as day. And before you even say anything, I do not take long showers, and I totally checked it within the testing window.

Of course I told my husband, and of course he was super happy. He even had a smirk on his face. I thought I was pregnant all day yesterday. I never thought it would happen to me.

I even started thinking about how I would word in on my blog and on the message boards. I finally thought I would write something like "after ttc for over 2 years, 6 medicated cycles (3 of which were IUI), 3 m/c, and moving forward with adoption.......I got pregnant on my own"

But, I guess I will have to use that announcement for another time.

Last night I had the plan that I would take another hpt this morning and then head to the RE for a beta. I wanted to go today because I would not be able to go again until Monday.

We were happy for a whole day. This morning I took the hpt and it could not have been more NEGATIVE!

I know what a negative test looks like, and I probably even know what an evap line looks like. I know what I saw yesterday.

I did in fact go to the RE, but I guess my local office is not open today, and the main office is an additional 45 minutes away. So, instead, I went to Walmart and bought a digital. Well, a 2 pack of digitals.

After about 3 hours from my first pee, I POAS. But - when I wiped, I realized that I started my period. It would not take a genius to know that the digital would say "not pregnant". So, I wasted the test by actually peeing on it as opposed to peeing in a cup.

Yup, not pregnant. I am just going with a faulty test yesterday. I really don't even want to think about the fact that it could have be a legit test which would mean yet another m/c - or as the medical field likes to call a chemical pregnancy. It is really just too much to handle.

So, I am going with the "I am so excited, this cycle was 30 days, yay" Can you sense the sarcasm!

Yes, we are adopting. And I could not be happier. But, IF is not something that you can just shut off a switch about. It is still upsetting that I can't get pregnant - and that I THOUGHT I was pregnant - without intervention - but that feeling lasted less than 24 hours.

And just because I like to post pics of my pee sticks, here is the hpt from yesterday. The line is pretty clear - no squinting needed.

Finished Class and got assigned!!!!

First, today was the last day of our class. YAY! The month went really fast.

Second, I got my resource worker assigned. I wonder if they felt bad that my paperwork was held up for a MONTH.

Anyway, we have our worker and she will do our homestudy (inspection, backgrounds, references, fingerprints, etc). We have scheduled our fingerprints for next Tuesday.

I hope the rest of the paperwork goes smoothly.

yay for one thing crossed off the list.

Finished Class and got assigned!!!!

First, today was the last day of our class. YAY! The month went really fast.

Second, I got my resource worker assigned. I wonder if they felt bad that my paperwork was held up for a MONTH.

Anyway, we have our worker and she will do our homestudy (inspection, backgrounds, references, fingerprints, etc). We have scheduled our fingerprints for next Tuesday.

I hope the rest of the paperwork goes smoothly.

yay for one thing crossed off the list.

UGH!!!

So totally annoyed! We had class tonight. For the past few sessions, I have asked our trainer if he could check to see if our paperwork was received in the main office. He has been really busy training so he has not been in the main office

The paperwork was given to my neighbor about a month ago and she was going to forward it to the main office. This was suposed to speed up the process.

Since we have not gotten a call, I was concerned that the paperwork never made it to the main office.

Well, I found out tonight why we have not received a call. Our neighbor "lost" the paperwork and it was not until our trainer asked about it was the paperwork located.

Apparently, it was found under several stacks of paperwork on my neighbor's desk. OMG, so frustrated.

Plus, I do not know if all the paperwork was found, or just parts. When we filled out the paperwork, we completed more than the usual person fills out in the begining. A lot of times, you will fill out one set and then when that is returned, you get more, etc etc.

I did keep copies of most of the documents, mainly the ones that would take forever to duplicate.

This is when it is NOT good to know someone. I am really losing confidence in my neighbor - first it took a month to get the apps, and now it took a month to get the apps to the main office.

If I knew this would be a problem, I would never have given it to her. I could have sent it myself.

So, UGH is the best way to express how I feel right now.

My trainer told me he personally saw that his supervisor has possession of the paperwork. And since this week is a holiday, I am sure I will not be contacted this week. I am giving it until the 1st week of Dec. If I do not hear by them, I will call myself. That is basically gives them a little over a week.

UGH!!!

So totally annoyed! We had class tonight. For the past few sessions, I have asked our trainer if he could check to see if our paperwork was received in the main office. He has been really busy training so he has not been in the main office

The paperwork was given to my neighbor about a month ago and she was going to forward it to the main office. This was suposed to speed up the process.

Since we have not gotten a call, I was concerned that the paperwork never made it to the main office.

Well, I found out tonight why we have not received a call. Our neighbor "lost" the paperwork and it was not until our trainer asked about it was the paperwork located.

Apparently, it was found under several stacks of paperwork on my neighbor's desk. OMG, so frustrated.

Plus, I do not know if all the paperwork was found, or just parts. When we filled out the paperwork, we completed more than the usual person fills out in the begining. A lot of times, you will fill out one set and then when that is returned, you get more, etc etc.

I did keep copies of most of the documents, mainly the ones that would take forever to duplicate.

This is when it is NOT good to know someone. I am really losing confidence in my neighbor - first it took a month to get the apps, and now it took a month to get the apps to the main office.

If I knew this would be a problem, I would never have given it to her. I could have sent it myself.

So, UGH is the best way to express how I feel right now.

My trainer told me he personally saw that his supervisor has possession of the paperwork. And since this week is a holiday, I am sure I will not be contacted this week. I am giving it until the 1st week of Dec. If I do not hear by them, I will call myself. That is basically gives them a little over a week.

Nothing but evap lines

Yes - I kept the old hpt from yesterday. Anyway, by last night (obviuosly WAY after the testing window), I saw what I can only assume is an evap line. There is totally a second pink line there. But, it was never there earlier in the day. Oh, and yes - I took apart both tests.

In the first picture, it is kind of hard to see. But, I think you can see it in the second picture.

However, when I POAS this morning, the only thing I got was a dent of a line. You can actually see this in both pictures. The dent is in the exact same spot as the evap? line. So, if you are having trouble seeing the evap line, just look at the same spot at the dent.

I have not had any spotting other than that first inital time. So, who knows.

Oh - and I am totally aware of the fact that I could have ovulated at any time, and the spotting could be for a nummber of reasons. I will probably test again in a few days if I do not get full period flow.

What is this? Spotting/period??

OK, I got my period on Oct 29. This was my first period after my last m/c. Ok, fine. Now, the past year, I have basically been on medicated (or pg) cycles. Before that, I had very different cycle lengths.

So, according to my math training in college (LOL), today is CD26. I am spotting or it may be the start of my period.

What the hell?? If this is my period, then this cycle was a 25 day cycle? I had cycles of 110 days last year.

Oh - and because I am a convinced that I will be one of the 5% of women who get pregnant after they decide to adopt, I took a pregnancy test.

I did not keep track of ovulation - it is really just a waste of money, because in the past, I have not ovulated without meds. yes, I know I can track ovulation with other means than an OPK, but have always hated temping. Plus, I hit snooze many times before I get up. Many times I hit snooze and never even know the alarm went off.

But, if you think that I may have ovulated like a "regular" woman, I would be about 12 DPO.

The last time I was pregnant, I started spotting on 12 dpo. That obviously ended badly.

I bought a 2 pack of tests, I took one mid day, negative. I will probably take the other one tomorrow - talk about a waste of money.

But, I guess I would just want to know if I am having yet another m/c.

Oh, and if you ask about other "symptoms" - well, I made a comment to my husband the other day that my boobs have been killing me since last week. Just like the last 3 times. But, that could also just be pms/getting your period.

When does it end? When will I fully "give up" on getting pregnant. Yes, we are moving forward. And, we are VERY excited about it. But, I don't think IF is something that will just go away. I know it will be something that I am always thinking about - even though we are not "trying" anymore. I know it sounds like jibberish, I don't think I am explaining it well.

So, I guess I will keep everyone updated. I am sure I will get the same results tomorrow.

My Sister had her baby!

My sister had her baby yesterday.

Sofia Hope was born on November 20th weighing in at 7 lbs 10 oz. Mom and baby are great!

Can't leave the guys out!!!

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Our Chirstmas Card - LOL

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Colin's B-Day present

For your viewing pleasure - here is Colin and a friend rocking out to his b-day present:

Gift Card for Sale

I know this is very unconventional - but, heck I know a bunch of people read my blog - so I will give it a shot.

Short story: I am selling a $200 Gift Card to Toys R Us / Babies R Us for only $190

Long Story:
Colin wanted the newest and coolest video game system (aka a game) and it cost $200. I told him I would buy it for Christmas, but he had to understand that he would really get just that.

His Birthday was a couple of weeks ago and all my sisters and my mother chipped in and got him a $200 gift card to Toys R Us - specifically so he could buy this one item. They did not buy it themselves because it was only released yesterday. I could not pre-order.

So, yesterday I get up at the crack of dawn (Ok, 7am) and drive to the closest Toys R Us. They never got the game in and have no idea when it will come in. OK, I will just buy it on-line.

Nope - it is sold out online. But, Walmart has tons of them. So, I buy it from Walmart in the hopes that someone will buy the gift card from me.

I am willing to knock $10 bucks off, just to get rid of it.

I am basically done with my christmas shopping, otherwise I would just use it myself.

So, if you, or someone you know, is interested in this, please leave me a comment.

Missed class #4

My husband went without me to Class #4. And it was a class that I really wanted to go to. There was going to be a nurse visiting and I had a bunch of questions.

Anyway, the trainer said that I could either make up the class by just reading the chapter, or could go over the stuff when our home inspection is done. Both ways are easy.

I missed because I had to take my son to the ER - you can read about all the details on my main blog.

And, I am starting to reconsider the types of children we will accept for placement. We have always said that we would consider age 0-5, this is staying the same. We said we would take a sibling group of 2, this is staying the same. We have said that we would probably only want a Caucasian child. This may be changing.

When I say "we" - I really mean me. my husband keeps saying that he does not care. I know, I know - I should not care either. After all we want a child in our home. Does it really matter what race?

Before I get totally flamed about this post, please let me assure you that I am not a racist person at all. But I thought it might be easier to raise a child that more resembles my husband and I.

But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that not even my biological child looks like me. Both my husband and I are about as fair as they come. We get a sunburn in the shade. My son always has a great tan, has brown hair and brown eyes. My husband and are blonde (ish) and both have light eyes.

In fact, besides that fact that I look young, many people think I am a babysitter.

Again, the more I think about it, the more I think that we should consider all races. And no, I am not settling. I am just realizing that there are more important things in a family than race.

How are you sleeping??

Sounds like a pretty straight forward question - but I guess not to a 14 year old.

When we were at the docs the other day, the PA asked Colin, "so, how are you sleeping"

Colin so innocently answered, "well, sometimes on my stomach, then I might switch in the middle of the night to my side, or to my back. So, I really can't say for sure how I am sleeping"

Both me and the PA laughed so hard.

Missed class #4

My husband went without me to Class #4. And it was a class that I really wanted to go to. There was going to be a nurse visiting and I had a bunch of questions.

Anyway, the trainer said that I could either make up the class by just reading the chapter, or could go over the stuff when our home inspection is done. Both ways are easy.

I missed because I had to take my son to the ER - you can read about all the details on my main blog.

And, I am starting to reconsider the types of children we will accept for placement. We have always said that we would consider age 0-5, this is staying the same. We said we would take a sibling group of 2, this is staying the same. We have said that we would probably only want a Caucasian child. This may be changing.

When I say "we" - I really mean me. my husband keeps saying that he does not care. I know, I know - I should not care either. After all we want a child in our home. Does it really matter what race?

Before I get totally flamed about this post, please let me assure you that I am not a racist person at all. But I thought it might be easier to raise a child that more resembles my husband and I.

But, the more I thought about it, the more I realized that not even my biological child looks like me. Both my husband and I are about as fair as they come. We get a sunburn in the shade. My son always has a great tan, has brown hair and brown eyes. My husband and are blonde (ish) and both have light eyes.

In fact, besides that fact that I look young, many people think I am a babysitter.

Again, the more I think about it, the more I think that we should consider all races. And no, I am not settling. I am just realizing that there are more important things in a family than race.

Comment from Doc - WTF!!!!!

OK, I have to get this out - will probably be long. I plan on writing a formal complaint and I want to make sure I type it all out while it is fresh in my mind.

Read the post below for more details. Basically, I was at the doc's and then the ER yesterday. Given tons of info, but in the end everything is fine. The doc yesterday made it seem like I had to RUSH to the ER. The ER docs made it seem like I had to RUSH to a follow-up with the doc.

We go to a walk in place as our primary doc. Today we were there for the followup and waited for 2 hours before being seen.

As soon as the doc showed up in our room I went on and on about the results of the labs and my questions and concerns. Mind you - I did not see this doc yesterday.

He keeps on saying that the labs were wrong (2 different labs? - both wrong??), and that he still has to examine him.

I asked again what could cause (insert results here). And that I am getting conflicting info. i confess that I this point I was probably getting a little snotty - he was treating me like an idiot for asking questions. I also expressed my annoyance that everyone seemed to rush rush when it could be nothing.

This is the resulting conversation:

Doc - "It is like talking about a child of a barren woman"

Me- "Um, excuse me?!?!?!"

Doc - "It is like talking about a child of a barren woman"

Me - "do you know how insensitive that is" (insert crying here)

Doc - "it is not insensitive, it is true"

Me - "how is that not insensitive, what does that mean anyway"

Doc - "basically we should not talk about something that might never need to be talked about" aka - barren women don't ahve children

Me - "you should never say that to anyone, it is rude, unprofessional and insensitive" "I mean is that that even a medical phrase???"

Doc - "fine - I just won't say it to YOU anymore"

Me - "it should never be said to ANYONE"

Doc (basically screaming at me) "I am NOT treating you!! I am treating HIM"

I swear, if COlin was not in the room, I would have punched him.

But - I will be filling a formal complaint with the office and maybe even the state's medical board.

Who says that!!!????? And when I tell you flat out that it is RUDE, you keep going. It got me SO FREAKING upset

Just love trips to the ER

So, yesterday we spent the majority of the day (and into the night) in the ER with Colin. It started out as a normal ped visit because of high fevers.

He had a stomachache as well. They tested his urine and it came back as extremely high bilirubin in his urine. Just an FYI - you should have ZERO bilirubin in your urine. They also said that his (urobilin or urobilinogen or something like that) was elevated as well.

So, they sent us to the ER thinking something wrong with his appendix or gall bladder. Did additional urine test and bloodwork as well.

A CT Scan was done and showed no problems with the appendix or other organs. The only thing they saw was enlarged or swollen lymph nodes in the groin area (mesenteric adenitis). This was said to be from a virus of some kind - OK, fine.

But, the doc said this virus has nothing to do with the bilirubin in the urine. There is no bilirubin in his blood. We have to follow-up with our doc who will probably send us to a urologist.

Oh, and I did not have a good experience with the hospital. We are newer to the area so we never used this hospital before. Things were not explained to me, only saw a PA and he gave me incorrect info, and I had to specifically ASK to see an actual doctor. Once I spoke to a doc, he gave totally different info than the PA (PA left out A LOT!). Kind of annoying.

We left the house at 2PM to go to the doctors and did not get home until 9:15 at night.

Some things we learned so far...

We have had 3 classes so far. Again, the trainer is just all over the place - but a super nice guy. We are actually hoping he is the one assigned to our case.

Yesterday's class was about attachment and the issues with attachment disorders. There was a new guy in the class and he was a big jerk. He obviously has kids in his care, so I am not sure why he is at class. Maybe the class is a new requirement since his last placement.

We got off topic (what a surprise) and he made a comment that made me upset. In fact, the whole class was emotional in one way or another for a lot of the class.

We were talking about when kids go back, how sometimes, according to the foster parents, is not in the best interest of the child.

This guy has a child in his house and the mom has been doing everything she was told to do. She has showed up to all visits, got a job, got an apartment, went to treatment and is clean, etc. The guy was BITCHING that the mom works but her job has an 11-8 shift. The kid must be school age. He was saying that this mom was not being a good mom to this kid because she would only see him for about an hour in the moring and an hour at night (maybe). She was also a single mom.

Well, this hit a nerve with me. So much so that when I raised my hand to comment, I started to cry. I was a single mom for 11 years before I got married. A lot of the early years I probably only saw my son a few hours a day. I was a full time student and worked full time at night. I did what I had to do to provide the best for my son. If that meant he was in daycare while I worked, well that is what it was. My son is a great kid.

The past few weeks I started thinking about these moms that have their kids taken away. When doing foster care (or fost/adopt), we need to remember that the goal of Children's Services is to return the children to their parents. To educate the parents how to be a better parent. To help the parent receive services she is intitled to.

Everyone talks about wanting to keep a child - and of course any child that is placed with us we would want to become a permanant member of our family. But, the best situation for us means that a mother loses her child. And, I don't care how bad you have it, I think a mother ALWAYS loves her child.

So, if a mom (or dad) does what she is asked, turns her life around, really loves and wants her kids, how can I be upset about it. The children are her children.

I would prefer any placements be those that have a good chance of staying with us, but I will also pray for that mom - she lost a very precious gift. I know I will be distrought if a placement has to be returned.

Some satistics - according to our trainer, he said about 40% of children are returned to their parents (or a relative). Out of those returned, about 20% will be removed again. Once children are removed again, the original time in the "system" counts toward the manadated timeline to start the termination of parental rights.

Timeline - A parent has a max of 12-15 months to work with Children's Sevices to "clean up their act". At the end of that time (or before in certain situations), there will 2 main decisions.

1 - the parents are not doing what they are supposed to and the goal is Termination of Parental Rights ("TPR")

2 - the parents ARE doing what they are supposed to and the goal is reunification.

12-15 months does not sound like that long. BUT.........after the 12-15 months, that is when the PLAN to terminate is in place. It takes another 5-7 months to have the court date to actually terminate. And after TPR, there is ANOTHER approx 6 months before the adoption is final.

So, we are looking at a possible 2+ years from placement to adoption.

But, like I said before, the clock does not start at zero if a child is removed, returned to parent, and then re-removed.

Example: I will use a removal at birth so the math is easier.

A child is removed at birth and is placed in a foster or fost/adopt home. The mom decides right away that she will go into treatment, but takes her 2 months to get into a place. Her treatment is 4 months. She stays clean for an additonal 3 months and does everything else that the judge says. The judge returns her child to her when the child is 11 months old (11 months in the system).

The mom has the child for 3 months and relapsed. The child is removed again. That mom now only has a max of 6 months to follow the court orders until a plan is determined (TPR or reunitication). However, once a plan for TPR is made, the parent still has that 5-7 months to get her kids back.

This was new info to me, I thought that at the 12-15 month mark, it was then that the rights were terminated. I did not know about the additional year before a child could be adopted.

Sorry this turned out so long, but it does help to get is all down on "paper"

The story of Adoption

I figured that since I have a story of me (IF & m/c), the story of my son, and the story of my house, that I should also have the story of why we are adopting. I know you can figure it out if you read "The story of Me", but here it is in it's own blog entry.

I have a son who is 14 yrs old, got pregnant as a teen with him (I was 19). So, when I got married when my son was 11, we knew we would add additional children to the mix.

What we did not expect was to have trouble trying to get pregnant.

We tried on our own for over a year before seeing a specialist. From Jan - Aug we did 3 IUI cycles. All of those IUIs resulted in pregnancy. Sadly, all ended in M/C.

After the second m/c, we spoke about adoption. We talked for a long time about why we wanted children. After a while, we realized that none of them had anything to do with giving birth to a child. My husband thought is was a little pre-mature to think about adoption at this point. Afterall, I did get pregnant twice.

After m/c #3, we were given the news that our only option was IVF with PGD (they test the embryos before they are transfered back to make sure they have a correct chromosome make-up). And since one m/c for sure was due to chromosome problems and the likehood that the other 2 were as well, there is a HIGH chance that we would have no good embryos at all.

Plus, this procedure would cost us almost $10K, that is after the insurance. We live on a modest income, in a modest house, and live a modest lifestyle. We do not have tens of thousands of dollars just laying around.

So, we spoke about everything and we agreed that we would start the process of adoption (through foster care). But, we also said that IVF is not totally out of the question. But, the more we got into the process, the less I felt the need to do the IVF.

At first I felt horrible because my husband would probably never have a bio child and I already have one. He has assured me that it does not bother him. My son is not his and he treats him like his own.

I have positive experience with the foster care system, so I always knew that if it ever came to that, adoption through foster care would be our first option. Plus, if we don't have $10K for IVF, we would never have the $$ for private/agency/international adoption. Adoption through foster care cost little or no money.

We submitted our application on October 27, 2008 and we started our required training on November 3, 2008. The class will be done before Thanksgiving. In addition to the class, there is background checks, financial checks, home inspection, reference checks, etc, etc, etc.

So, in a nutshell, that is the Story of why we are adopting. I might add to this post as time passes and updates are needed

Some things we learned so far...

We have had 3 classes so far. Again, the trainer is just all over the place - but a super nice guy. We are actually hoping he is the one assigned to our case.

Yesterday's class was about attachment and the issues with attachment disorders. There was a new guy in the class and he was a big jerk. He obviously has kids in his care, so I am not sure why he is at class. Maybe the class is a new requirement since his last placement.

We got off topic (what a surprise) and he made a comment that made me upset. In fact, the whole class was emotional in one way or another for a lot of the class.

We were talking about when kids go back, how sometimes, according to the foster parents, is not in the best interest of the child.

This guy has a child in his house and the mom has been doing everything she was told to do. She has showed up to all visits, got a job, got an apartment, went to treatment and is clean, etc. The guy was BITCHING that the mom works but her job has an 11-8 shift. The kid must be school age. He was saying that this mom was not being a good mom to this kid because she would only see him for about an hour in the moring and an hour at night (maybe). She was also a single mom.

Well, this hit a nerve with me. So much so that when I raised my hand to comment, I started to cry. I was a single mom for 11 years before I got married. A lot of the early years I probably only saw my son a few hours a day. I was a full time student and worked full time at night. I did what I had to do to provide the best for my son. If that meant he was in daycare while I worked, well that is what it was. My son is a great kid.

The past few weeks I started thinking about these moms that have their kids taken away. When doing foster care (or fost/adopt), we need to remember that the goal of Children's Services is to return the children to their parents. To educate the parents how to be a better parent. To help the parent receive services she is intitled to.

Everyone talks about wanting to keep a child - and of course any child that is placed with us we would want to become a permanant member of our family. But, the best situation for us means that a mother loses her child. And, I don't care how bad you have it, I think a mother ALWAYS loves her child.

So, if a mom (or dad) does what she is asked, turns her life around, really loves and wants her kids, how can I be upset about it. The children are her children.

I would prefer any placements be those that have a good chance of staying with us, but I will also pray for that mom - she lost a very precious gift. I know I will be distrought if a placement has to be returned.

Some satistics - according to our trainer, he said about 40% of children are returned to their parents (or a relative). Out of those returned, about 20% will be removed again. Once children are removed again, the original time in the "system" counts toward the manadated timeline to start the termination of parental rights.

Timeline - A parent has a max of 12-15 months to work with Children's Sevices to "clean up their act". At the end of that time (or before in certain situations), there will 2 main decisions.

1 - the parents are not doing what they are supposed to and the goal is Termination of Parental Rights ("TPR")

2 - the parents ARE doing what they are supposed to and the goal is reunification.

12-15 months does not sound like that long. BUT.........after the 12-15 months, that is when the PLAN to terminate is in place. It takes another 5-7 months to have the court date to actually terminate. And after TPR, there is ANOTHER approx 6 months before the adoption is final.

So, we are looking at a possible 2+ years from placement to adoption.

But, like I said before, the clock does not start at zero if a child is removed, returned to parent, and then re-removed.

Example: I will use a removal at birth so the math is easier.

A child is removed at birth and is placed in a foster or fost/adopt home. The mom decides right away that she will go into treatment, but takes her 2 months to get into a place. Her treatment is 4 months. She stays clean for an additonal 3 months and does everything else that the judge says. The judge returns her child to her when the child is 11 months old (11 months in the system).

The mom has the child for 3 months and relapsed. The child is removed again. That mom now only has a max of 6 months to follow the court orders until a plan is determined (TPR or reunitication). However, once a plan for TPR is made, the parent still has that 5-7 months to get her kids back.

This was new info to me, I thought that at the 12-15 month mark, it was then that the rights were terminated. I did not know about the additional year before a child could be adopted.

Sorry this turned out so long, but it does help to get is all down on "paper"

Going away this weekend!

I am super excited. There is a GTG this weekend with wonderful ladies that I met through a national message board. The board is for people who are having a hard time concieiving. I have become close to some of these ladies, even though we have never met.

The GTG is in Chicago, which is cool because I have never been there. There is a bunch of stuff planned for the weekend. But, best of all, I get to meet lots and lots of cool ladies - yay!

I am trying to convience my husband that I need all new clothes for the trip, I don't think he is buying it.

Colin will also be away, be he is going to Williamsburg, VA with the Boy Scouts. Poor hubby will be home all alone for the whole weekend. Although, I doubt he sees it as a bad thing :)

I have been looking forward to this GTG for over a month, and now it is finally here.

1st Class - Check

First Class was yesterday. Very long. it turns out that there are 2 classes a week. And, the last two lessons are on the same day. What does that mean? It means that instead of 8/9 weeks of classes, it is only 4 weeks of class.

Our classes will be over before Thanksgiving.

The class had 8 families - many different situations. We went around the room and had to say what type of care we were doing and our names, etc.

1 - Us. It was totally totally strange to say, "hello, we are ...., we can't have our own children" I guess saying it out loud makes it even more true.

2 - trying to get legal custody of a niece's infant. Placement in their house since 2 weeks old. Goal is reunification.

3 - doing foster care only. I guess they "sponsor" international kids and want to help kids here. Unsure if they would adopt if situation presented itself. Children up to 12 yrs old.

4 - doing foster care only. Have 6 kids between the two of them, but most have left the house. Miss children in the home. Not looking to adopt - only foster. Children up to 10 years old.

5 - trying to get legal custody of cousin's 2 kids. Placement in their house for a few days. Will adopt if cousin does not shape up.

6 - looking to get her 2 grandchildren out of foster care. Children removed 2 months ago, but are not with her now. Goal is permanent placement with her.

7 - looking to get legal custody of her grandchildren. Don't know the rest of her story.

8 - Adoption. She also can not have children. Adopted a child 8 years ago through the system (but was considered a private adoption - I guess it is a long story), then a few years later got a call about a sibling. Private adoption of that one also. A week ago, she got a call from another state's child agency. There is now another sibling that was removed. She is going to adopt this sibling but must go through all the training, since in the past she was not officially licensed through the state.

We do not have a resource worker yet, but the trainer said that by the end of classes we should have one assigned to us. I am trying not to stress over that.

The class was fine, the guy jumped around a lot though. Seemed like he lost his train of thought through out the whole class. We watched a foster care / adoption video that was (no joke) from about 1990.

You know it is bad when the statistics are from the 80's. The situations were pretty unlikely and the acting was BAD!

After the video, we talked about different things and had open discussions.

During a break I asked one of the staff about our situation. Meaning that our goal is adoption and asked if there were kids whose were already "free" for adoption. Of course there are, but 99% of them are older kids. So, it looks like we will be doing fost/adopt. Which of course is fine, but that comes with the legal risk that the children may return to the parents. I guess that is a the chance we will have to take.

But, the trainer also was giving us realistic expectations that a lot of these kids do NOT go back. I guess we will just have to look at each situation as it is presented to us and make a decision based on the info.

1st Class - Check

First Class was yesterday. Very long. it turns out that there are 2 classes a week. And, the last two lessons are on the same day. What does that mean? It means that instead of 8/9 weeks of classes, it is only 4 weeks of class.

Our classes will be over before Thanksgiving.

The class had 8 families - many different situations. We went around the room and had to say what type of care we were doing and our names, etc.

1 - Us. It was totally totally strange to say, "hello, we are ...., we can't have our own children" I guess saying it out loud makes it even more true.

2 - trying to get legal custody of a niece's infant. Placement in their house since 2 weeks old. Goal is reunification.

3 - doing foster care only. I guess they "sponsor" international kids and want to help kids here. Unsure if they would adopt if situation presented itself. Children up to 12 yrs old.

4 - doing foster care only. Have 6 kids between the two of them, but most have left the house. Miss children in the home. Not looking to adopt - only foster. Children up to 10 years old.

5 - trying to get legal custody of cousin's 2 kids. Placement in their house for a few days. Will adopt if cousin does not shape up.

6 - looking to get her 2 grandchildren out of foster care. Children removed 2 months ago, but are not with her now. Goal is permanent placement with her.

7 - looking to get legal custody of her grandchildren. Don't know the rest of her story.

8 - Adoption. She also can not have children. Adopted a child 8 years ago through the system (but was considered a private adoption - I guess it is a long story), then a few years later got a call about a sibling. Private adoption of that one also. A week ago, she got a call from another state's child agency. There is now another sibling that was removed. She is going to adopt this sibling but must go through all the training, since in the past she was not officially licensed through the state.

We do not have a resource worker yet, but the trainer said that by the end of classes we should have one assigned to us. I am trying not to stress over that.

The class was fine, the guy jumped around a lot though. Seemed like he lost his train of thought through out the whole class. We watched a foster care / adoption video that was (no joke) from about 1990.

You know it is bad when the statistics are from the 80's. The situations were pretty unlikely and the acting was BAD!

After the video, we talked about different things and had open discussions.

During a break I asked one of the staff about our situation. Meaning that our goal is adoption and asked if there were kids whose were already "free" for adoption. Of course there are, but 99% of them are older kids. So, it looks like we will be doing fost/adopt. Which of course is fine, but that comes with the legal risk that the children may return to the parents. I guess that is a the chance we will have to take.

But, the trainer also was giving us realistic expectations that a lot of these kids do NOT go back. I guess we will just have to look at each situation as it is presented to us and make a decision based on the info.

Classes Start Today!

When you adopt from the foster care system (at least in our state), it comes with required training. The classes are nine 3-hour classes for a total of 27 hours.

Our first class is today! We were only given the info that the class starts today - so I am not sure if they are once a week, or more than that in a week. So, the classes could be up to 9 weeks long.

But, we are excited. Even more exciting was that my family came over on Sat for my son's b-day and all of us had great conversations about us adopting. A lot of it was like a Q&A session - but it was good to give them the info that we have.

And it is great because the class is actually in my town, so I will probably meet other families that are local to me.

Yay!

Classes Start Today!

When you adopt from the foster care system (at least in our state), it comes with required training. The classes are nine 3-hour classes for a total of 27 hours.

Our first class is today! We were only given the info that the class starts today - so I am not sure if they are once a week, or more than that in a week. So, the classes could be up to 9 weeks long.

But, we are excited. Even more exciting was that my family came over on Sat for my son's b-day and all of us had great conversations about us adopting. A lot of it was like a Q&A session - but it was good to give them the info that we have.

And it is great because the class is actually in my town, so I will probably meet other families that are local to me.

Yay!