Hello - I am now part of this century. I officially have a Facebook page. I am starting to find some friends from way back when - kind of cool.
If you want to look me up, the e-mail address on file is mycolony1 at yahoo dot com. Just don't send me an e-mail at that address. It is only for stuff like this. I have 1000's of e-mails sent there a day.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Who am I?
I was tagged by the lovely Lisa to do a pretty interesting meme.
The Meme originated over an idea that was prompted by the book written by Larry Smith and Rachel Fershleiser, Not Quite What I was Planning: Six Word Memoirs by Writers Famous and Obscure.
It's a compilation based on the story that Hemingway once bet ten dollars that he could sum up his life in six words. His words were- For Sale: baby shoes, never worn.
Here are the rules:
The Meme originated over an idea that was prompted by the book written by Larry Smith and Rachel Fershleiser, Not Quite What I was Planning: Six Word Memoirs by Writers Famous and Obscure.
It's a compilation based on the story that Hemingway once bet ten dollars that he could sum up his life in six words. His words were- For Sale: baby shoes, never worn.
Here are the rules:
- Write your own six word memoir.
- Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like.
- Link to the person that tagged you in your post and to this original post if possible so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere.
- Tag five more blogs with links.
- And don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!
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I have never been tagged before - and it seems like this one is pretty hard. I really thought about my 6 words. Six words to describe my life. I again thought the same way that Lisa thought - there are many things that define my life.
But after I thought about it, I came up with:
Cherish Today - Because Tomorrow it's Yesterday.
I actually remember writing something similar in my HS yearbook.
I really try not to have regrets in life. I remember seeing a quote somewhere that said, "Life Is What Happens When You Are Making Other Plans"
Life is a road trip. Sometimes you make a wrong turn, sometimes you find a shortcut, sometimes your destination changes. But, I always enjoy the ride.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
If I am pregnant - I would be SHOCKED
I am still testing negative. I have to wait until Friday until my official beta. And then I will stop taking the progesterone.
So, I think I might just stop testing. I only have 2 or 3 cheapie tests left anyway. So, I might not waste them because the chance of a positive test is slim to none.
But - If it turns out that I am pregnant - I would be SHOCKED!
So, I think I might just stop testing. I only have 2 or 3 cheapie tests left anyway. So, I might not waste them because the chance of a positive test is slim to none.
But - If it turns out that I am pregnant - I would be SHOCKED!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I think this cycle is a bust
I like to test early. I have explained my theory on this several times. But, so far I have gotten negatives. By 12 dpo the last time, I already had a positive pregnancy test.
I know, I know - I say it all the time. You are not out until a negative beta. I would love to follow that advice myself - but I really doubt this will be a successful cycle - which I am fine with. I just want to move on if it is negative.
I am on progesterone so that probably means that I will not get my period until after I stop taking it. So, I have to wait until Friday to get my negative beta and then get the instuctions to stop the progesterone.
And before anyone says, "maybe you just ovulated late" - if that is the case than this cycle is busted without a doubt.
I was out of town on the day that I ovulated. We did what we had to do right before I left (day of trigger). so, if I ovulated late, then there is basically no chance at all. Even if my husband had super duper sperm - the likihood of them living 7 days is slim to none.
I knew this cycle would be a "hoping a praying" cycle anyway - it still sucks that even with meds, we just can't get it right.
Next cycle will be IUI again. Not sure if I will just deal with the clomid side effect, ask for femara, or do injectables. The only thing that "scares" me about injectables is amount of monitoring appointments. Yes, I know I am lucky to have insurance. Trust me I KNOW! But, paying a large co-pay for each office visit get really expensive when you have so many appointments in a cycle.
If in fact this cycle is busted, I will talk to the doctor on my Cd 3 testing.
Unlike last time, if (when) I get a postive, I will post it here.
I know, I know - I say it all the time. You are not out until a negative beta. I would love to follow that advice myself - but I really doubt this will be a successful cycle - which I am fine with. I just want to move on if it is negative.
I am on progesterone so that probably means that I will not get my period until after I stop taking it. So, I have to wait until Friday to get my negative beta and then get the instuctions to stop the progesterone.
And before anyone says, "maybe you just ovulated late" - if that is the case than this cycle is busted without a doubt.
I was out of town on the day that I ovulated. We did what we had to do right before I left (day of trigger). so, if I ovulated late, then there is basically no chance at all. Even if my husband had super duper sperm - the likihood of them living 7 days is slim to none.
I knew this cycle would be a "hoping a praying" cycle anyway - it still sucks that even with meds, we just can't get it right.
Next cycle will be IUI again. Not sure if I will just deal with the clomid side effect, ask for femara, or do injectables. The only thing that "scares" me about injectables is amount of monitoring appointments. Yes, I know I am lucky to have insurance. Trust me I KNOW! But, paying a large co-pay for each office visit get really expensive when you have so many appointments in a cycle.
If in fact this cycle is busted, I will talk to the doctor on my Cd 3 testing.
Unlike last time, if (when) I get a postive, I will post it here.
Friday, May 23, 2008
8 DPO - Side Effect Hell
I figured I would lighten the mood of my last few posts by posting about IF. That should brighten your day, right.
Anyway - today is 8 dpo. I am on progesterone - which many IF woman knows how that is taken. For those who don't - well, let's just say it is not taken by mouth LOL.
So, apparently my body must be the "perfect" sample. Yeah, perfect sample for side effects. Want to know if a certain drug will have side effects - just send it my way. I will probably have many to report.
In addition to the fact that the meds make me completely tired, it is doing weird things to me. Of course my boobs hurt, I have bloating, headaches (could still be from the clomid though), night sweats, etc.
Lucky me. I hope this will be worth it in the end.
I had my Progesterone tested the other day. I have to assume it was OK, my clinic only calls if there is a problem.
My beta is scheduled for May 30 - But I will probably start testing on Sunday or Monday (10dpo, 11,dpo). Last time I did not get a postive until later in the day on 11 dpo. I guess we will just have to wait and see.
Anyway - today is 8 dpo. I am on progesterone - which many IF woman knows how that is taken. For those who don't - well, let's just say it is not taken by mouth LOL.
So, apparently my body must be the "perfect" sample. Yeah, perfect sample for side effects. Want to know if a certain drug will have side effects - just send it my way. I will probably have many to report.
In addition to the fact that the meds make me completely tired, it is doing weird things to me. Of course my boobs hurt, I have bloating, headaches (could still be from the clomid though), night sweats, etc.
Lucky me. I hope this will be worth it in the end.
I had my Progesterone tested the other day. I have to assume it was OK, my clinic only calls if there is a problem.
My beta is scheduled for May 30 - But I will probably start testing on Sunday or Monday (10dpo, 11,dpo). Last time I did not get a postive until later in the day on 11 dpo. I guess we will just have to wait and see.
Long Post - part 3
This will be the final part of the long posts - I will try to just jump to now (2008).
OK - Over the past several years we have had a tutor for Colin. I am not 100% sure that it really worked. But, it told Colin that we were serious about his school work and was something that we had to do.
When we moved to NJ I thought this would be the perfect time to have a fresh start. Colin had just finished 5th grade in NY and been having such a hard time - socially, education wise, etc
I spoke to the new school and asked if we could just keep him in the 5th grade. A couple of reasons:
1) I thought is would be the perfect time - nobody knew him so would not know that he got "held back"
2) He was young - so again, no one would know that he did not belong in the 5th grade
3) He was small - again, no one would question it.
I got the same response (AGAIN) - his test scores to not warrant him repeating the same grade.
So, let's get to middle school. His school uses this program called K12 Planet. Basically what it is is an on-line program that lists all his classes, all his assignments, all his grades.
You are thinking, "Wow, what a great tool". This is good and bad. If Colin was doing some of the assignments, or doing OK on tests, well, then I would get his report card and say "an 80 - good, but I know you can do better"
But, instead, I see missing homeworks, assignments that are not handed in, test scores. So, when I see that he gets a 100 on several tests, and then has 4 missing homeworks - it is really apparent why he has a 75 average in the class.
Any missing homeworks are an automatic score of 0. His school has a policy in place that homework must be handed in on the date it is due. If returned late, there is no partial credit.
So, I have been using K12 planet to check up on Colin's progress.
It is always the same arguement - "Colin, why are you not handing in homework" - "Why are you lying to me when I ask if you have any homework" - "Can't you see that the only reason you are failing is because of homework".
I try to explain to him that if you get 100's on tests but get 0's on homework that you can possibly do very bad in the class.
We have this conversation about every 2-3 weeks, after every progress report, after every report card.
Every month I have to send a letter to each teacher asking for the assignments that he is missing. I know he will not get credit for them (school policy) - but I still WANT THEM DONE!
I am at my witts end - I can't keep having this conversation.
About Feb of last year I told him that he was not going to get to the 8th grade - that his grades were too bad and his attitude towards school was not any better.
He did in fact get to the 8th grade.
Now, I don't think that he will EVER make it in High School. High school will swallow him whole.
We have an appointment with his guidance counselor on Tuesday to discuss everything again. I doubt I will get anywhere. I have had the same conversation with the counselor as well. Nothing is ever done. The last time we had a meeting, I wanted him re-evaluated - I was told that he is probably just lazy and that the testing process is a long one.
Right now Colin is failing 3 classes - so it is possible that he will fail 8th grade all on his own.
I know I totally skipped a few years but it is the same story over and over again so I guess I would just be repeating myself.
So, there it is - probably something that I NEVER thought I would share with the general public. Mainly because I think it makes me look like a bad mom.
Who knows - the posts may be deleted.
Thanks for reading if you read this far :)
OK - Over the past several years we have had a tutor for Colin. I am not 100% sure that it really worked. But, it told Colin that we were serious about his school work and was something that we had to do.
When we moved to NJ I thought this would be the perfect time to have a fresh start. Colin had just finished 5th grade in NY and been having such a hard time - socially, education wise, etc
I spoke to the new school and asked if we could just keep him in the 5th grade. A couple of reasons:
1) I thought is would be the perfect time - nobody knew him so would not know that he got "held back"
2) He was young - so again, no one would know that he did not belong in the 5th grade
3) He was small - again, no one would question it.
I got the same response (AGAIN) - his test scores to not warrant him repeating the same grade.
So, let's get to middle school. His school uses this program called K12 Planet. Basically what it is is an on-line program that lists all his classes, all his assignments, all his grades.
You are thinking, "Wow, what a great tool". This is good and bad. If Colin was doing some of the assignments, or doing OK on tests, well, then I would get his report card and say "an 80 - good, but I know you can do better"
But, instead, I see missing homeworks, assignments that are not handed in, test scores. So, when I see that he gets a 100 on several tests, and then has 4 missing homeworks - it is really apparent why he has a 75 average in the class.
Any missing homeworks are an automatic score of 0. His school has a policy in place that homework must be handed in on the date it is due. If returned late, there is no partial credit.
So, I have been using K12 planet to check up on Colin's progress.
It is always the same arguement - "Colin, why are you not handing in homework" - "Why are you lying to me when I ask if you have any homework" - "Can't you see that the only reason you are failing is because of homework".
I try to explain to him that if you get 100's on tests but get 0's on homework that you can possibly do very bad in the class.
We have this conversation about every 2-3 weeks, after every progress report, after every report card.
Every month I have to send a letter to each teacher asking for the assignments that he is missing. I know he will not get credit for them (school policy) - but I still WANT THEM DONE!
I am at my witts end - I can't keep having this conversation.
About Feb of last year I told him that he was not going to get to the 8th grade - that his grades were too bad and his attitude towards school was not any better.
He did in fact get to the 8th grade.
Now, I don't think that he will EVER make it in High School. High school will swallow him whole.
We have an appointment with his guidance counselor on Tuesday to discuss everything again. I doubt I will get anywhere. I have had the same conversation with the counselor as well. Nothing is ever done. The last time we had a meeting, I wanted him re-evaluated - I was told that he is probably just lazy and that the testing process is a long one.
Right now Colin is failing 3 classes - so it is possible that he will fail 8th grade all on his own.
I know I totally skipped a few years but it is the same story over and over again so I guess I would just be repeating myself.
So, there it is - probably something that I NEVER thought I would share with the general public. Mainly because I think it makes me look like a bad mom.
Who knows - the posts may be deleted.
Thanks for reading if you read this far :)
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